4am Thoughts

As I sit here at the hospital where I work, I am wondering, why is it that when we need God the most, we seek out anything but him? So often I am confronted by people who reached for drugs, and alcohol to drown out their problems. But why? Why is something as amazing as Gods Grace the last thing on so many peoples minds? It makes me wonder if I am not doing my job as a Christian. Am I leading by example? Am I even worthy enough to be a leader? I think DC Talk summed it up the best "What if I stumble? What if I fall? What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all? Will the love continue, when my walk becomes a crawl?" Lately I have been realizing, not everyone can make a difference on a large scale. Some are blessed with the gift of writing, singing, speaking, they are given gifts that hopefully they will use to tell large audiences of Gods unfailing love. Praise God for those people. Some however, will work their whole lives to try to get the one family member, or that one friend to come to God, and many are called home before they can see the fruits of their labor. They are no less important. May God grant us all perseverance, that we, whatever our gifts are, may use them to the best of our ability. We may not think we are making a difference, or that we are unworthy, but I have recently come to realize, God doesn't call the equipped, he equips the called.
Much love
Geoff